I didn’t win.
I didn’t know Anthony very well, but I know that he touched, helped, & inspired a lot folks that I care a lot about. I’m sorry to lose him. I’m sorry for everyone else who lost him. I’m sorry he & his family had to deal with the pain & sadness of his illness. Please send your good vibes to them today.
What if I win the Mega Millions jackpot? Then what?
I’m on my fourth junk-food-free day, & I think it was easier to quit smoking cigarettes.
It sucks that you don’t know it’s a bad time to read Joyce Carol Oates until after you’ve read some Joyce Carol Oates.
Uh, I’m graduating Summa Cum Laude?
Listening to side b of “Blue” & thinking about stuff.
I wrote a poem about the time I found out that my sister was going to die. I don’t think I’m going to turn it in. It’s already three weeks late.
May: sleep, cleanse, party June: tour July: tour August: tour September: tour October: tour November: tour December: move, apply to grad schools Then, AmeriCorp & an MFA.
Grumpy because I stopped eating junk food. At least I have some trail mix, the shitty kind without M&Ms.
Yesterday I sold my little red wagon to Jason & I miss it. Six years of wanderlusting, mistake-making, lawyer sideswiping, tow truck waiting, spinning around, crawling through mountains, filling with sand, empty juice bottles & cigarette butts, sitting in forests, slipping on puddles, kicking up dust, picking up friends, & getting spit on. It’s what carried me from Baltimore...
Woke up with a feeling of inexplicable dread. Gross.
this isn't happiness.: Jack Kerouac’s List of 30... →
nevver: Scribbled secret notebooks, and wild typewritten pages, for yr own joy Submissive to everything, open, listening Try never get drunk outside yr own house Be in love with yr life Something that you feel will find its own form Be crazy dumbsaint of the mind Blow as deep as you want to blow Write what you want bottomless from bottom of the mind
Drawing love notes & using a typewriter. My desk is too cluttered & I want an iced tea.
I wish all the poisonous people would just move back to California already, & take their girlfriends with them.
Maybe it’s the clouds, or the fact that it’s spring break, or that I’m listening to French Quarter in a friend’s bookstore, but today feels great.
So this sounds pretty silly, but I started writing power-quotes on the Saturdays in my planner. Here’s today’s: “You can cut all the flowers but you cannot keep spring from coming.” - Neruda
I haven’t been this stressed out about money in awhile. But I guess emergency car repair & an overdue water bill rarely make a person feel good about their finances.
Oh, just sitting on the side of an Eastbound 202 on-ramp in Tempe with a shredded tire, no spare, & a headache. You know what I don’t understand? Why does it take so long for tow trucks to get where they’re needed? I feel like most towing situations are emergencies, and that a well-run company shouldn’t take 45 minutes to an hour to respond to any emergency, much less an...
Kissing is awesome.: What is demivegetarianism? →
demivegetarian: “Demivegetarianism” is a newly-coined term for a little-known, often misunderstood subset of vegetarianism. A demivegetarian is a person who, for the most part, follows a vegetarian diet. However, a demivegetarian is permitted to consume meat products if and only if those… Haha. I’m not, by any means, a dictatorial vegetarian. In fact, I avoid the term altogether,...
1. Working on a piece about Baltimore. 2. Taking the baby to the zoo. 3. Skipping class to do homework. 4. Eating cereal. 5. Actively ignoring events & people that annoy me.
I’ve been really busy for the past few months, with barely enough time to do the things that I need to do, much less want to do. I miss my friends. My load is lightening up significantly over the next couple of weeks, and I’ll be out of school in a month & a half. Then I’m going to leave for several months.
I DON'T USE THE WORD "BITCH"
and I cringe every time my friends do. Just thought I’d let you all know.
All I want is "Siamese Dream" on vinyl.
& then listen to it forever.
Anyone who says that they don’t like almond milk has no idea what...– probably the most bigoted sweeping generalization I’ll make.
When you can’t stop thinking about Raymond Carver’s ‘Cathedral’.
Tomorrow, good music is happening at my house, maybe pizza too? The place is a mess, but I’ll try not to be weird about it. Also I’ll be playing in a band, Dogbreth. You should come over & hang out & maybe have pizza. Also we’ll be playing in Tucson because Bröötal is this weekend. Three days of buds & jams. It’ll be really good & fun. I’ll try not to...
Even though I’ve been at it 5 days a week for more than a year, I’m still a little impressed with myself every morning I’m out of bed, dressed, & in the car by 6 am.
I don’t know if I can handle another class discussion on Pride and Prejudice.
...just in case you forgot. →